I wish,
My ears could hear..
The real truth..
I wish,
My eyes could see the real truth,
I wish,
My mouth would speak the real truth,
I wish,
I could write the real truth.
The truth which
simple,
absoulte
100% pure.
Yet So difficult to say.
today was the day which started with
anger – against people who suck my blood
frustation – realising i cant do much except sulking
but i decided to
Protest — By wearing my t-shirt inside out and letting them know why i m doing it.
A small gandhigiri..step.
Feeling happy to let people know.
and
dont worry
next time it wont be my trousers inside out:)
cheers
After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn’t mean leaning
and company doesn’t always mean security.
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn…
Starting weight loss today.
Plan to update blog everyday.
93.6Kg is todays weight.
13 june target … 70kg.
Disclaimer : This is scary story. Might give you nightmares if you believe in it. Might give you a big headache if you dont believe in it. Please read at your own risk.
On 20th Feb 2010 it will be 5 years since my dad expired. Not a single day has passed we have not remembered him.
A new theory is being circulated by my relatives these days.
My dad has become a ghost and he is very unhappy wandering around.
Who told me this : My dad came in one of my relatives dream. Why he would not come to my dream.
A big question arises, Whats the solution to please his spirit.?
Solution Proposed :
1. Not to eat any one thing for 2 months.
2. To make a silver idol small 6 inches around and put that into a basket into my home with lots of conditions like
3. Worship him, do agarbatti
Why i should do it :
After Effects:
Are you scared? Is your head paining. Dont worry Either one or other will happen soon.
I dont have much principles in my life, but since i know myself I have always decided to go against such black rituals, it hurts me a lot to even listen to such crap. I wonder why would my dad not come to my dreams or give me signals that he is unhappy somwhere?
Why would he hurt me after his life when in his whole life he didn’t want us to be unhappy for a second.
Lets consider Even if these things are true..
A few points come to my mind…
Why would a spirit be unhappy?
Was there something it didn’t get in real life which it wished to get. It was desprate to do.
Was it my marriage? If it was so why would he not let it happen now.?
Was it house we wanted to buy? But we have bought it and now have two houses in mumbai. The real home is in rajasthan.
Was it appreciationwhich he didn’t get from people he expected after helping them life long?
Was it the pain which he had to bear due to relatives and friends who cheated upon him?
Was it sacrifices he made for them, overlooking his own family?
Was it people whom he treated like his own and who backstabbed him?
Was it feeling of cheating after being deserted by his own people?
Was it that promises were not kept, none of them by his own?
Why would a spirit be unhappy? When now he has nothing to worry about?
Was he regularly insulted by people he stood by?
So many questions. The worst part is i know answers to all of them and cant do anything. The best part is he had a big big heart and he knew the art to forgive. I need to learn this.
Wish he was here with us. I can assure you he wont he unhappy and disappointed even if he was. I would be there to stand by him.
Hope you dont have a headache by now! if not hope u are not scared also. And i wish you make people happy around you. Stand by people who stand by you, help people who help you, be good to peopel who are good to you.
Amen.
Sounds Familiar!
Who in world can frustrate you to the core… and yet survive your deadly wishes.
Who in world can come to your house say anything that they want to say, comment on you and make you smile at their comments.
Who in world can suck your brains out , give you pain and tension at time ..and yet walk away unharmed.
Yes you know it. I am taking about few unbearable relatives who are hard to tolerate.
Why do we have to tolerate their nonsense in our own house like some far distant relative or uncle or someone some aunt giving you stupid advice.
God..
Its hard to tolerate. Day by day its becoming unbearable.
Phew…
How much to ignore yaar.
I call them choosak. (some one who sucks your blood, mind, peace at all the time)
Why cant we select our relatives like we select our friends. why?
Thats why friends are much more then relatives.
How many relatives of yours are your good friends. Do u like them just beacuse they are your relatives or friends.
Any Thoughts..
The Projector Starts rolling. The names start appearing and a name appears Quentin Tarantino. Stark Yellow, Big German looking English font. And i found myself clapping along with the whole cinema. 10 Seconds of Movie and I am already into it.
I am not waiting for the story to unfold, or any action scene to overwhelm me beacuse I am already are. I am very happy beacuse something very unqique to going to unfold in my life. Something which is going to be limited edition happiness in mylife. I know, so I am damn happy.
Chapter 1 comes on the screen and we know What the master torontonio is upto. I just pray to good may there be 100 such chapters.There are not.
As soon as the chapter one ends we have seen emotions like hatred, fear, wickedness, brutality, cunningness and 100 more. The language is shifted from French to English and then again to french. The dialogues are superb, crisp and a treat to hear. The man just plays with words and each word is well placed.
Chapter 2 starts and its equally strong in terms of presentation and story line.Chapter 3, Chapter 4 and Chapter 5 all are building blocks of movie. Every emotion known in this world is displayed in this movie.
4 languages are used but not a single word goes un-understood. The detail to work, scenes is unmatched. Even the real world would not be so real.
Torontonio exploits every actor. Oh i wish the bollywood heros could go to him for a crash course for one movie. The bolly heronies shd see this movie to see the actress in the movie. simply amazing. No one in bollywood could pull it off.
When the movie ended, everyone in theatre was smiling and happy like their money invested in a ticket has given them 100 times of what they wanted. I thanked myself for deleting the movie which i had downloade d from torrent a month back and not seeing it. This is only to be watched in cinema.
I would like to write about story but wont do, dont go with anything in mind. Go with the unexpected and get the expected dose of 100% sheer entertianment
Last year it was dark knight and this year this movie is going to do it. Overwhelm you. Leave you happy. This will leave u satisfied to the inner core of you heart.
One more thing as the movie ended.Again I found myself clapping with audience.
The movie name is Inglourious Basterds
a small poetic attempt
what what 2 do
what what not 2 do
what 2 do and what not 2 do
what u do is not to do &
what u not do is what u do
Life sucks!
Why?
When things don’t happen the way we want it sucks.
How?
Say I am most powerful person on earth, to decide what happens, i want to eat pizza and my doctor would say not allowed. Damn!
Why can I eat pizza. Feels Helpless.
Coz we lack courage to say no to doctor. We are afraid to say I don’t care. The reason to say no to doctor may be whatever. But it irritates you from core.
Then mood is spoiled. You emit so much negative energy.
When you inhale and exhale the air is hot! Damn hot!
The body temperature rises.
Everyone around you is affected, the anger inside has to be released. The person who work for you or agree with you get hit first for no fault of theirs.
You crib and say Life sucks!
This post is expression of my anger towards things which i can control but dont control and also towards stupid people who are really stupid and ignorant and nearby me.
Everyday i think about it, everyday i have a excuse. a different one most of times to not to do it. When is it going to happen. God knows. Everyone who is reading this blog knows how fat i m getting day by day. One of my friends called me up and told me that he was amazed to see my recent pics. He said “aise to to fat jayega”.
Well the truth is truth. and i have to start it soon.
Just dicipline, strong will and determination to do it is required.
The things i should do is.
I know it all, i am master in knowing it all and not doing it. I have tried it but not tried hard enough. Every month I wat for 1st to come and I will start but the 1st of month goes by and its to next month. Even trying it from mondays doesnt work and then next week goes by.
It should be timeless. and started right away.
Sleeping early will help me tremendously. Coz once i wake up early, i can go to swimming, (that day i will have a bath everyday at least). And early to office means early to home. and a evening walk. Watching less of movies.
I know its matter of just 3 months to get where we want. But it looks so hard. It should be done step by step. One step everyday. I have to do it.
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